Lately Emo-ing

This few days keep emo and keep struggling with lot of things
Just recovered from study stress now come out the new stress...

My relationship stress...
Don't think my girl will look at my blog as she always think that my blog won't consists anything about her
Sadly to say, lately we quarrel over a lot of things

Just happen lately, all about Europe trip things as we going UK soon,
she kept saying that I show no interest in this trip lack of commitment and bla bla bla....
Yeah, I really show no interest cause I put my exams at first priority,
Secondly there is a lot of uncertainties during this event,
unconfirmed amount of people and so and so and so...
but not about this issue, the issue is since there is so many unconfirmed things why should we doing all these, even we do already people may not want to follow us, let's say if just both of us go, then no need to worry what, we will settle it when we are in UK, yeah I really just care about myself cause I just focus on my exams, I just think on my side, cause I really much too slower than you, I think much long way, if I didn't pass my paper now what happen in my future, had you ever think of me, once you told me you want me to pass my paper fast, and you want me to do all this, to be frank I really try my best to make you concentrate in your exams, YES, we must do our plan but not really now GIRL, I just want you to follow this first, just finish our exams first and we got plenty of time to do our plan.

Just Honeymoon trip we can go wherever we want, I think of your safety, seriously we can no need go so many places, just go like 6-7 is more than enough I just wan enjoy everything with you without rushing here and there, there is a lot of thing I really need you to understand but I really can't express in words, but only three words I LOVE YOU.

You like to say I don't care much on you
I admit is my fault too, I really less SMS-ing you when I reach home, and just want you to SMS me when you reach home, cause when you reply me, I will make sure that time I reach home to reply you messages.
I promised you this, no matter what happen in the future, I won't say those words that really break our relationship, I will just admit every single apologies even that is not my fault or our fault, I appreciate your love and everything you did to me, althought I didn't show interest but it's always in my heart because I love you.

I;m sorry that I really can't remember your schedule for each week, each day. each hour and even each minutes, its all my fault. Everything is my fault, you must always remember this, you did nothing wrong, only I'm the one who wrong, I love you. That's all I can say.

Happy always.