Stupid act of mine

I know is stupid, I know by doing this will get on to your nerve, but I just simply can't explain why am I doing this.

All I hope for now is get one last chance from you. I have been thinking deep these few break days.

I always think back to the origin we started our relationship. What drive us to always be together and happy. And I realize lot of thing, we cherish each other, love each other be with each other.

I know I make a big mistake this time. I just hope for your forgive. I will prove to you I will change everything for you.

I love you

Happy New Year 2014

Thank you for all the memories and experience that I gained in year 2013.

More and more challenges ahead in year 2014.

Setting up the new goals and target in what to be achieved within this year.

The main objective still remain whereby I need to learn and gain more experience in auditing line in order to achieve a better future of mine.

Work hard study hard

Not forget to wish everyone Happy New Year 2014.

Wishing all the best to everyone here too

Happy always.

Farewell My first job

Time really flies....

I can't believe I had stay in this company for 1 year including the OT time I had worked for in this company

Really so much of thank you I wanna say to this company

Though towards the last day I got to hold my tears....this place had trained me a lot

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to learn and growth, doing a project is not easy everything is as hoc.

But I learned a lot of bank stuff here the process, the products, the analysis.

Cannot absorb all but I'm happy I learned some.

Lot of sad,happy,joy etc stuff happening throughout the project which we get to solve it together.

Thank you for giving me a chance to grow up.

Working in project everything is a rush, OT just to finish the task, facing all the blame game, people which sometimes really challenging, thank you for everything and I learned.

Thank you for training up my skills, I had been always careless, thank you for let me think deeper and harder on working thing on. Thank you

Really learned a lot in this team and this project in this bank.

Thank you for everything.

Team Work

Talking about team work, I think lately I really did badly in this, I can't really assist my team during this week task.

Maybe I'm really focus on the wrong thing and forgot about my team. All these while I was so worry that I'm not able to key in and work on my own to ask questions from the senior. Due to all these I'm really lost my direction in doing my job.

Felt really sorry to my team, that I'm really doing my task correctly.

Other than thinking all these negative thing, I'm trying hard to let my mind think of positive thing pull myself back. And I'm really found that I should focus in my team handling task doing all job together handling task without increase their nurse. I'm always thought that I always did a good job in working in a team looks like I'm wrong again. I'm selfish and didn't think of others.

It's time to learn and change again. Focus more on y own work other than worry in the future. Did a good job in my position is the most important thing that I need to do now.

Lately I don't have my gf to comfort me because she was too busy with her job too and I'm really can understand that.

I really need to grow up and figure out what is right and what is wrong. What should I do and what I shouldn't do.

Really, when times pass by, there is more an more that I need to learn and handle before I'm really move into my real permanent job in future.

Happy always.

Positive thinking

Maybe in the train is my best place to think everything again

Well as I previously mentioned
My current job is just to understand how the system work and what we need to know and keyed inside the system

At first I'm really happy I got to do more than that and really happy I can learned more but day by day, week by week pass by, I got bored, because what I became now is to teach others how to key in and use it, but I'm always do all the back end think I really don't know the user thing to key in anyway...

After that I found some solution, I'm trying hard to learn so that I'm able to guide and teach them...learning all by myself and through my team member...

End up I learned nothing I perhaps, trying to understand everything is not as easy as ABC...

So, I'm struggling lately, on the mistake I made...problem on assists others...made me feel do restless these few days

I'm trying to maintain my positive thinking mind stay calm...but really it's really hard...having a clear mind all the time it's really not that easy...

I really hope I can learn by myself faster ...I really trying...I don't understand why...

Well things that got me fire is on the lately meeting, with my current job I hardly keep my promise to my girlfriend because of all the time constraint...and the meeting ...i really got dont know of the reason I need to stay and listen to it..the meeting saying and mentioning all the problem in the system.....it might be part of learning but it's late at night..and I'm so tired that not even a words can stick on my mind...I really hope all these can be done in the morning....

After all these problems come in, I always try my best to have a positive mind and be happy always...luckily I got a very understanding gf that always support me...always calm me and know what I need when I'm down...

I really want to learn either by myself and learning from others but I find it really hard

All I want now is just knowledge and the ability to assist my team, I really hope I'm able to think every sort of way to help my team members out

I really need to think out a way so that I can continue to learn and be passion in my job...just really have to try my best and learn as much as possible

Just stay positive and keep learning
Pain in life is to enable one to grow up stronger

Happy always

Working life

It's had been a month that I started to work.
Gain lot of experience here as part of people and also understanding my company want.

Sometimes it really needs me to rethink what I have done for the day
I know I made lot of mistake when I'm doing my job sometimes
and really need to think and find a way out to solve all the problems

Problems do occur sometimes, but the way to solve it is important
found lot of issues lately in my office, no matter in encounter people or work
Really need to found out a way sometimes
I need to have a face action when facing some sudden event or problem incurred and really need to finish all the task that given set to me before the deadline

Every night have to think what I had done is not easy
and think of way of doing thing fast
all these really not easy for me
but I will work hard and try to find the best solutions
not to forget also
be happy and stay positive is the only way I can do

Happy always

Another stage of life

After I'm graduate in my study life
these 4 years gave me lot of sweet bitter memories to store
and I will always remember the experience and knowledge I had gained
another stage of life working life

this stage of life, we will be wholly and exclusively independent
without our parents to support us
and I had been do lot of thinking on how to support my own life and also in future my life partner together with my own family soon which my child in future.

Sometimes, I'm really so impress that my parents able to raise my siblings and me which total of 4 person, I know they faces some hard time too, but when come to me myself, I really can't figure out anything that I can support all these.

I'm actually thinking of saving those money inside, well as if I really calculate, it really didn't save that much of money. I just hope my plan really succeed, actually my plan is to do some savings and with some investment.
Just hope my plan will succeed, seriously I just want to work hard to earn money, I don't like doing sales and direct sales, will just using my own way to prove that not only these sales can makes you earn more money, but also to save more money to have a better life.

It's not easy I know, since my next working job will be only hold me for 1 year and I need to find another job again, this one year I choose to work as temporary so that I can be more focus on facing my exams clear it up and go on to what I really want in future.

I always dreamt that I will be a pro. financial analyst in the future, imagine analyse all those company financial statement, really hope I can get such a job in the future, all I need it experience.
Although I had been doing it, I think what I did just the minor part of it, I'm there is a lot more to learn.

As for partner, I do promise her, I will earn more and save more to have a better life for both of us in the future, I know that my strategy will make her loss all her confidence but I will try my best.
It's the right way for her to be harsh on me sometimes, realistic is the right way to face the world.
We are no longer in the world of our parents generation whereby a person is enough to support a family.

Life is getting tougher now a days, I have to work hard so that I can achieve my own goals and let my family to enjoy their life without any burden too.

Let's looking forward to future, bite my own teeth, work as hard as possible don't forget also taking care of my own health too.

Happy always.
Let the challenge begin.